Tuesday, 18 September 2012

Personal Life


This past week, I spent the last couple of days of the week thinking about how students needs must be met before we can truly teach them.  I have heard this is many classes, and am truly seeing that play out here.  While this is true in American schools as well, I have seen many instances of students being unprepared for learning as they enter the classroom in the morning.  Some students come hungry, cold, lonely, or dirty to school.  Try teaching a student when their basic needs aren’t met, and it’s like trying to swim a mile upstream; tiring, difficult, and altogether worthless. 

I have learned many strategies of how to help ensure that students needs are met in the morning, and how to address those who may need assistance without making them feel alienated.  But the big difference is that almost all of the students have a general understanding of how it feels to be in such situations that many students are in.  So the level of understanding is not something that must be taught, rather it comes quite naturally, making the task of providing for each child much simpler.  I love the sense of community that my kids have, the general love and respect they have for each other (most of the time). 

But then I also spent time thinking about how this is true for me as a teacher as well.  My cooperating teacher has often come to school carrying her own personal problems with her, and I have seen it affect the class in both positive and negative ways.  In the same way, I have seen my attitude and energy level in the classroom change based on my personal life as well.  In the same way as with my students, I need to be sure that my basic needs are met before I enter the classroom as well.  If I neglect to do so, how am I supposed to care for and teach all of these children during the day? 

In the end of this week, I went to school with a lot on my mind.  While this is not necessarily a bad thing, I realized that I need to find ways to clear my head before I enter the classroom.  Yes, my students do serve as large support in many ways, but it is also unfair for me to let my unmet needs or personal thoughts affect the way I interact with them.  Each teacher needs to find their own way to reflect, work through, and process all the positives and negatives life will throw your way.  Having strong support systems, going for a jog, writing, singing, playing music, reading, knitting, etc;  all can be great ways to help separate work and home. 
Tonight, because I have finally reached a greater comfort level in my surrounding neighborhood, I went for my first run on the mountain.  I will not bore you with little details, but the combination of creation, the sunset, the feeling of exhaustion, and the burning in my muscles brought me such a feeling of relief and joy.  Finding ways to release the stresses of life and work, as well as finding time to get away and give thoughts time to process is so beneficial to the body, mind, and soul.

2 comments:

  1. It seems that you have truly experienced the absolute exhaustion of teaching. I sometimes marvel at Jesus pressing on despite all of those disciples with their special needs. Could it be that God needed to truly be a person to realize the limitations that come along with being human???
    It is 7:30 on Saturday as I have spent a good part of the day playing Sinterklass at Elim in Dutchfest, reconnecting with some former students, feeling truly blessed even though Caryl says some of them still look quite scary, and giving my new business card to one of my first students who was thrilled but couldn't understand how I could be a doctor since the card said I was an Ed (Ed.D = doctor of education). You know what Kelly - I truly believe that you are touching some kids there in South Africa and you may never get the chance to really know it until something happens years (or even decades) later that has you muttering a silent "thank you God".
    I was so blessed to be able to walk a half mile to Elim each day for 20+ years because it gave me a specific time to dedicate my family and students to God in prayer - a prayer of anticipation on the way in and a prayer of either thanksgiving or sometimes (maybe often) frustration on the way home. My encouragement is to keep taking those runs - be genuine with your students - don't be afraid to let them know of your frustrations as well as your joy. I can actually remember one of my students telling the others not to make me mad because I could get quite loud and we would lose learning time. And it was exciting to be able to learn or to be able to compete. I suppose coaching was also an outlet for me - because I could get loud and demanding but it was OK because sometimes you need to be tough to win. Once my students experienced the absolute joy of winning but also knew that it was hard to work to get there - they often became different persons. But also remember - you can't always win. There are going to be some students that may not follow your lead whatever you do. I met a former colleague today and asked how her kids were doing. She told me that her oldest - a child that had special needs - was currently in jail but that was ok as she felt that this was where he had to be as he deepened in his faith. God's lesson plans don't necessarily follow state standards or our timelines - but the only high stakes test is to dedicate our teaching to Him. Blessing on your work Kelly - and looking forward to seeing you on your return.

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  2. You are learning so many important lessons about students needs and your needs. You are learning them much more quickly than your peers.

    You said it well that God is using this time to transform you body, mind, and soul.

    Blessings,

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